Monday, October 13, 2014
Monday, October 6, 2014
This weekend, I visited the house where my Grandparents had lived. My Dad grew up here and we spent almost every weekend here when I was growing up. The person who bought the house is just letting it go, no one lives there now so I was able to walk the property and share my childhood stories with my guy. It felt strange & hurt my heart a little seeing it so lifeless because growing up this house was always so full of life.
As quiet as it was, I could still feel, hear, see everyone's spirits. All of the things we used to do....the perfect pieces of cantaloupe Grams would cut and we would eat under the shade of the trees, digging up worms just behind the house for fishing, walking down the hill to the lake to catch more sunfish than we could eat in one sitting, rolling down the hills on the side of the house. I could go on and on.
Gramps always said he could see Grams after she had passed, that she would visit him. I never doubted him and as I left, walking down the deck steps, on this very cloudy day, the sun peeked out just for a moment....my eyes filled with tears and I waved up, saying hello to Grams and Gramps.
Our spirits leave imprints, our memories keep them alive.....
Friday, October 3, 2014
Sometimes you have to look back, step back, go back to begin. It's not good to stay in the past but it is good to understand where you have come from, the steps you have taken and the missteps.
I've been walking through my past. I wrote in journals every day as a little girl, it's a weird feeling reading my 14 year old thoughts. To my surprise, some are still the same which makes me realize, we are who we are at a very young age. Yes, we evolve but our essence stays.
As I write my book now, I believe this journey, even though it is taking me back, is moving me forward in completing my story. Some of it is hard and that's what stops me, it takes me places that I don't always want to go....feelings I don't want to feel again. At the same time, it heals...it stirs my soul and pushes my creative spirit. The walk up these steps only makes my passion grow stronger for completing my work and for helping others.
Every time I want to stop, I think of this quote....
“It's supposed to be hard. If it were easy, everyone would do it.”
― Tom Hanks in A League of Their OwnHope you all had a great week, that your research is going well, writing is going strong and that you have wonderful weekends!
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
This post is part of the Insecure Writer's Support Group. You can find out more or sign up HERE. There also is a Facebook page, you can find it by clicking HERE. Thank you to our fearless leader, Alex Cavanaugh!
As the leaves change color and the air turns brisk, I tend to turn inward, thinking about life and how it changes so quickly, moves so fast as another season comes. In those moments, I tend to judge myself on the things that I have not completed, pages not written, photos not organized, people I haven't seen, thank you notes I have forgotten to send. I used to get stuck in those thoughts, being paralyzed by them....
Now, I stop myself. I think of all the things that I have completed, then I make a list of the things that I still want to get done. I also finish one thing that has been outstanding for a long time. Every time I do that, I feel like a new woman!
So today, if you are struggling with those same thoughts. Just pick one thing and do it! Give yourself a pat on the back and always remember to keep moving forward.
Happy October, everyone!!